I know what you’re all thinking. ‘You don’t hate yourself!’ But I do! I think everyone hates some aspect of themselves. While this is not an exhaustive list of the things I hate about myself, I’m hoping this will give you an insight into how I feel about myself and how others feel about themselves.
I have spent the last 35 years being told by the people that know me best that I’m selfish and 6 people can’t be wrong right? I know can be selfish and I work hard on this fault! I’m working so hard on it that people will tell you I’m not selfish because I’ve put myself out to help them so much. It hate this aspect of myself so much that I get really angry when I see other people being selfish to people who don’t deserve it. Which brings me to my second fault…
I have a foul temper and while I don’t lose my temper anywhere near as much as I used to, I do still have the odd occasion where I lose it. Generally when I see injustice or unfairness. I try my best to control myself but sometimes it does blow up. But afterwards! I shake uncontrollably in fear of the consequences of my anger, because of the effort that I’ve put in to control my temper for so long and because I’m so angry with myself for losing my temper. I also generally end up in so much pain afterwards that it keeps me awake.
Again, I’ve been told for 35 years that I’m a very thoughtless person and I am. I tend to open my mouth to swap feet. I struggle really hard with this fault. I try my best to think before I speak but I generally fail with this. Akin to thoughtlessness is my sarcasm. I’ve been on the receiving end of cutting sarcasm and it’s not a nice thing to have to face so I really wrestle with my demons with this and I think I’ll be struggling with this one for a long time!
Like I said at the beginning, this isn’t an exhaustive list but I feel these are the main faults that have caused me the biggest problems. What is your view of these faults? Do you hate them as much as I do?